moral flexibility

I have been in contact with someone who hurt me terribly, but I have no desire to turn him away. He did approach me with a sincere apology for why he left so suddenly and I admit that I could not help but to accept it because I thought closure would heal me, but it really reopened wounds that didn't heal correctly in the first place.

Just because I don't talk about it, doesn't mean I'm over it.


His intentions are purely selfish and while he won't admit to it, I know he craves to have me again. I shared with him a few secrets about my current life. How I got involved and left Z. The young boy I met online, M, and Lacey. He isn't the jealous type. He is the kinky dirty type that wants to hear the hot details. The kind that wants me to webcam and record it, so he can download it on to his phone and watch it whenever he wants. The kind that believes that it's only cheating if he sticks his cock in me, so as long as he fucks me with everything BUT his cock, we're safe. The morally flexible kind- my favorite.

While part of me thinks I should simply tell him to fuck off and never speak to him again because I deserve more than his paltry attempts to mend a broken heart and keep me on the side- I'm tempted to play with him a little.

I'm dangerous when I have nothing to lose.